what if today were my last day alive on earth?
what would i want to do?
what should i do?
how does one put one's affairs in order?
do i have regrets?
should i have regrets?


our passing is something we should never fear nor avoid speaking of
it is inevitable ... 'tis but the manner of our passing that differs one from another
as a result of sin in the garden of Eden, illness and disease; 
the process of aging and dying came upon humankind;
initially created by the Living God for His pleasure


i remind our eldest that i ... we ... will not be around forever for him
there will come a time when he must fend for himself and his siblings
and sure enough, one day he asked, 'why?'
'sin', i explained, 'when adam and eve did not listen to God's instructions, they disobeyed God
as a result of that disobedience, ie sin, every living thing will grow old and die
pain, tears, sorrow, sickness ... a package deal with aging and dying
you have seen and observed how the fish we rear die, how plants wither and die
you have watched nature programs and seen survival of the fittest at work.'


this was not supposed to happen but when disobedience occurred, it came to an end
even so, God loved and continues to love humankind, His creation
so much so, He sent His only son, Jesus Christ, to mend and build a bridge ...
nay, Jesus IS THE bridge through Whom all may return to Him
and have that friendship with Him once again ... to walk and talk with Him 
as we do with one another
to be like carefree children once again


i remind my wife she'd better learn how to gut fish and change tyres
implement family security and manage finances 
be not harebrained nor gullible
do not ever take things for granted
in case our Jesus calls me home before her 


the Lord God Almighty has blessed us tremendously
'miracles' is the only apt word 
that only begins to describe the ways we have been and are blessed
the times we were and continue to be delivered
of a truth i daresay more than we shall ever know 
i believe there is much we wist not ... how much goes on behind the scenes
the grace of Jesus made it possible for me to have a second chance
at life ... at a family ... at a home
beautiful children and a loving wife; falls, scrapes and clinic visits
good times and not so good times; spills, thrills and arguments
labour room & ward, midnight feeds, 2am ... 4am ... 6am feeds
soiled diapers and clothes, baths and dosing of medicines
schooling woes and pretty soon, teenaged woes
there is much to be thankful for


and thus, regrets have i none 
should my Jesus call me home 
i do wish i can see the children grow ... shall miss their smiles and laughter and growing up
shall miss fishin ... and singin for my Jesus
the Sovereign Lord God Almighty has provided for us and taken care of us
protected us, healed us, blessed us, delivered us
what more can or should one ask for?


no regrets .. and i believe none should have regrets when one returns to the Creator
i give thanks when my Jesus calls me home
for i trust and believe my Heavenly Father is able 
and shall continue to care for the family He blessed me with
i give thanks when Jesus does not call me home 
when i awake to a new morn for i shall have another day with friends and family alike
either way is good for i know my Heavenly Father is good and just and righteous in all His ways
merciful and compassionate, ever true and faithful, perfect in every way


thank You, Lord Jesus
i love You and thank You
i surrender to Your grace and mercy O Lord